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Hey everyone, Welcome to my Blog ^_^. Living the life as a "young adult" learning, experiencing, feeling, loving and basically just living life! This blog here contains my everday life where i talk about it freely. Somewhat of a diary and a way to reflect on my life as a individual. So far i had this blog up for 3 years and still going. Well even though my life may not seem that interesting.. it is my story and i love living it.. im grateful for who i am and what i have even though it could be alot better but im not materialistic. The virtue that i enjoy the most would be love, i have a very strong heart.. but not only is it strong but weak, every strength has a weakness. Well through out my entries and pages you should learn a bit about who i am. And well this is my story...
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November 14, 2005
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[Currently Listening to: Hunny Voice =D]
Hewwo Everyone, Im finally getting to post in my blog O_o its been a while, but im back and off to a new start. As i said before in October i haven't really been having time to do anything, Depression had become a big weight on my shoulder and kinda brought me down due to relationship issues, but come on who doesn't have their ups and downs {Look at Inuyasha And Kagome ;) } lol So because of that i haven't really been able to focus and stay on task with my normal routines. I have to say that when Depression hits you.. it hits you good, and not only that but since im the "sensitive/loving person" it hits me double haha. And as we all know when a person gets depressed it can get a person distracted to carry out normal activities and thats what happen to me, i wasn't really able to focus on my school work and didn't even dare look at my sites that needed update because the depression was... sucking the life out of me haha. So my grades weren't as high as they should of been which was bad but whats in the past is in the past and even though i hold in alot of my feelings.. i evenutally need to let it out =( and it came out alot for the past 3 months.
It's hard to be me sometimes... but then at times i really enjoy being me and living the life i live even though its not the best in the world but you know what? Its mine and im proud to be the way i am even though i disapprove my "Negative Side" and My Emotions but hey im not perfect and no one is. But at the my down times i tend to still keep a smile or atleast remind myself that tomorrow will be a better day {even though when im depressed.. sometimes i don't think that lol =P but thats cause sometimes i don't think and it kind of consumes me} But thats why i believe that now i have to make a new start in my school work and in my personal life with the one i love. Me and Matt have somethings to work on but its ok as long as we do it together. I really do love him thats why in a way i got into my depression state cause i started to worry since he changed a wee bit. And i was just being concerned and i just wanna help him with his issues because not only is he my boyfriend but he is my BestFriend and i don't wanna lose what we have and that makes our relationship special well atleast i can name that one XDDDD. Now you can't blame me for trying to help or be concerned for a friend thats what love is "strong affection for another" and im a bit to loving with my emotions =(
Well thats what leaves me to the whole new start.. I'm going to look on to our positives and leave our last few months of this year wonderful ones =) and also start of the new fresh. Anyway enough of my personal life lol XD Umm today was an ok day of school, went pretty quick.. had to stay after school cause my whole class except 2 didn't do our homework. So i basically got home at like 3:15 more or less and i don't got much homework so im set for today =) probably going to play "Gunbound" later and work on my graphics or make a small update for You Two it all depends haha =P well i think i can get some stuff fit in today and IM SO HAPPY I GET TO SEE MY HUNNY TOMORROW YAY!!!!!! ok =D so yeah i hope tomorrow goes by fast! and most likey im going to update my sites atleast once a week {Probably work on it on the weekends} If things go the way i want it to then i can get on a better route. Then i can get on with the other small things that i wanna get done like *looks at list* Beat FFX and FFX2, practices a wee bit more on my new characters and story, and i'll stop there lol
Well thats most likey my goal to atleast get that out of the way, then tomrrow i think ima take some pictures i drew and put em on my locker, lol this year i acutally wanna have a pretty locker =) cause last year i didn't do much with my locker {didn't really care =P} but now i want to and soon i should be getting a mirror for my locker {Its going to personalized} and have it say "I Love" at the top and "Matthew" at the bottom and have dark and light blue hearts around the mirror. And once i get my digtal camera w/printer ima put pictures of me and my hunny =) and some of my wonderful pets. I tell you my locker is going to look hot =) OH MY LOCKER NUM is "252" lol anyway enough with my locker and this entry lol i think i wrote to much and im off to other things like play Gunbound, Make some Graphics {I'm Getting Better, dont cha think ;) } and then work out {Keeping in shape} take shower and most likey get on with the rest of the night. So i shall see if i write again and keep on track now so me blog again later {Hasta Manana}!
Jeannine changed the layout on the blog on 2005-11-14 at 5:00 A.M.
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